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I Could Sing of Your Love Forever
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Yesterday was a hard day. Life just seemed so overwhelming. Today was a much better day and I seem to have a better outlook on things. It's surprising how much things can change in 24 hours. Tonight I am working on picking out some music for the prayer service the youth group is having on sunday. Praise and worship music can be so uplifting to the spirit. If your feeling overwhelmed grab an old praise and worship cd (I know that makes me sound so old, every one has ipods and mp3s now) and listen to something you have not heard in a while.

Today I feel a wave of change in the air, but I have not been able to identify what the change is going to be, where it is coming from, who is going to be involved. It's just this heavy air. Pray for me. I really don't like not knowing what is coming. At the same time I love change. I get tired of ruts and same old things day after day. I am ready for a change for that very reason.

About once a week I visit this webpage and wonder why I don't write here anymore. Sometimes I get the feeling I should write and than I get so overwhelmed about what has not been said that I don't even know what to say. I miss when I wrote on this site regularly. I miss the me I was back then.

On Sunday we sang a song in church that I remember singing in chapel at JBU so many times and I closed my eyes and the next thing I knew I was there surrounded by friends singing and worshiping our Lord. I miss those days. I don't miss homework. I don't miss cafeteria food. I don't miss spending lots of money on books and classes. I miss my friends.

Yesterday, I went to an interview at a local radio station. They are looking for a part-time promotions person. It sounded very promising, but she said she had more interviews to do and she would call me next week. I would be so happy if I was offered the position. I have so patiently been working and looking for a job. Sometimes insomnia can be a blessing. Thank you God.

It has been a while since I have said anything here. Today, I felt it was time to say something and make some changes. Life is weird. I never would have guessed a year and half ago that today I would be living at my mom's and working part-time at my church with youth and families. Somedays I wish things were different and other days I am so happy to be where I am. I know change is coming though. I can sense it in my bones, in my soul, and in the air. I still get nervous and excited as change heads my direction. You would think after this many years and with as many changes that I have lived through I wouldn't still get nervous, but there is something about the unknown that is hard not to get nervous about.